Way to go McCain!

Okay I just came back from lunch and flip on the msnbc site and find out that McCain chose Sarah Palin as his VP Running Mate! Way to go McCain for putting a woman on your ticket especially after Hilary...the girls in the office call it brilliant and so do I. Yeah well this goes to show you anything a man can do a guy can do I have known of that for years this also reinstills my faith to vote for McCain in November! Power to the Women in Politics and aiding in running our country!

Tired of feeling used and abused

Okay this is my vent post for the week. I have just had it. Had it with life, had it with everything. I keep asking God where He is in all of this because after last night I dont see him in much of anything in all of this. My night started out with my ex husband basically blowing up my cell phone calling me from 4pm because well lets see the world revolves around him and his new wifey, yeah new wifey who ran out of guys to screw in Indy so lets move to Kokomo and then make my ex husband marry you or send him to jail for kicking your happy ass--wow what a basis of a marriage..anywhoo... (sure if you want a woman who has you by the balls 24/7 then by all means go for it) anyways he apparently has his family now which includes my 5 yr old son funny thing is that my son hates her guts and wont have anything to do with her and doesnt even want to be around dad since basically for the last 2 years dad has been too busy with his life to be with his son and blown him off but that all has to change now because well he has the little witch and he has to show her hes the perfect father (not) and well lets see now they live an hour away and he basically wanted me to cater to his happy rear (trying to be nice and not use profanity...) and drive Matty up there and he will meet me. Okay fine except for this weekend I had plans and my plans didnt include my kids for once because I am escaping to take some time for myself. So now I have to drive home from work and pack up the car and deal with a 5 yr old I wasnt planning on dealing with. And then Monday night figure out how I am going to get him back. It would have been nice for my evening to end there. But no it doesnt. My mother decided that last night that that knife needed to be twisted in my heart/back whatever just a little bit more, so she proceeds to call me and tell me that its all my fault that she doesnt get to see her grandbabies. I cant help Mike divorced me and she doesnt get to see her step grandchild because apparently Mike thinks you divorce children too when you divorce someone..I love all my kids regardless if they are mine or not I know I have a 10 yr old son who would still like to have a relationship with Mike since Mike was there for him since he was 3 years old but well apparently that isnt going to happen. And apparently thats all my fault as well. Didnt you know everything is my fault. Getting cheated on was my fault because I didnt have triple d boobs, and wasnt pretty enough, sorry I am not a slut or a hoochie mama, getting pregnant was my fault because I apparently was not a sex goddess...anyways bottom line everything is my fault I am finding out..and that I guess I am too nice in this world you have to be a bitch to make it in this world something I have never been much of before, but something I better learn about pretty damn quick otherwise I am going to lose everything but I guess the point is what do I have now? A pile of bills and an income withholding order for people to pay child support but unless they take it out of their checks that isnt going to get me much anywhere. Then I trust a person let him date me let him spend time with me and when things get tough (ie I got pregnant) well so much for that and I havent heard from him in almost 3 weeks. So thats why I am to the point where the hell with men. People keep telling me there is this perfect guy out there for me. I am 31 years old and have yet to find him not that I am looking at the moment because really who would want to date a pregnant woman, and if I have one more person tell me God has something awesome for me I am so gonna smack them. I thought I had met a great guy someone who wanted to be with me for me, someone who I could match wits with and be a smartass with and him with me plus he was a soldier which I love the whole loving a soldier thing so we date and then one thing leads to another and then I find out I am pregnant and boom! things change...I actually dont know what happened I think he was intimidated by someone to not go near me because the phone calls and texts stopped. I was really wanting to get to know this person. I know if I got a girl pregnant yeah allow me to run away sorry I guess I am just not built like that..so so far in this pregnancy (almost 18 weeks) I have been alone dealing with the pain and the morning sickness and everything. Still working 40 hrs a week, still dealing with the needs of 2 kids and still waiting for God to decide enough is enough before he hands me anymore because Lord I am so there, enough is enough. I would just like some peace and order in my life, right now my life consists of me working all day, coming home, hanging out with Matty and then being in bed by 9pm. Up at 510 am to start all over again. If I am lonely or sick to my stomach I deal with it. No energy anymore since the pregnancy so I am getting so behind on housework I do the bare mininum it takes to get by. There are so many nights I would just like to have someone to curl up with and watch TV with and talk to. I actually thought I had found my match but apparently I was wrong. Okay well now my feelings are out and now everyone knows why I am feeling like I am feeling I am gonna go and cry now. Hope all of you have a better weekend than me.

Pretty uneventful night

I got to say yesterday was pretty uneventful. Shellie brought Garrett into the office yesterday afternoon. Good to see him doing so well since his surgery and lengthy hospital stay. He is a beautiful baby. Went to pick Matty up at daycare last night and he looked like he had been to a shooting. His top of his shirt from his top of his collar all the way down to about the middle was covered in ketchup--when I asked him what happened he told me that the "ketchup kasploded at lunch" I think its funny how he says the word exploded, now I am just trying to get the ketchup off the shirt..Got to play more with the baby last night too. For some reason I can lay on my bed while Matty is taking a bath and getting ready for bed and she is all over my stomach..an arm there a leg there maybe this is just a signal of the jealousy to come..hahaha but she/he seems to be more active like around 7pm than any other part of the day. Other than that not much else went on so for a Wednesday it was a pretty uneventful day.

Okay last night went much better....

Okay last night went much better...with Dustin that is. He called me about 930 on the way home from somewhere with his dad and hes like hey mom how are you and all that jazz and to tell you the truth, I was actually half asleep. But then it was so cool hes like mom I am all ready for devotions. So I said a quick prayer..Lord give the child a peaceable heart and an open heart and to be honest I hadnt even looked at the devotional for the evening before hand and so I open it and its based on Luke 12...thanks Lord I guess I need a reminder too. Anyways Luke 12:12-the end of the chapter is all about not worrying and remembering that the Lord is caring for you. I love the illustration He uses about the raven, how he doesnt reap, doesnt sow yet God feeds them and gives them feathers. And then it was like the Lord placed the words in my mouth as to what to say to Dustin and what I was telling Dustin was good advice for me as well. Dustin I know we have been through alot but you know what its all going to one day very soon work out and when it does we arent going to have the chance to question God and say why, its just all going to fall into place and its going to be for His glory. As I was saying this and praying this into my heart there was like this peace I could feel on the other end of the phone line. I was like thank you God that you can make peace in the midst of the toughest trials of our lives. I am starting to worry about this baby and how I am going to afford it and am I going to be alone in the delivery room and where and who is going to take care of Matt and everything and last nights devotion was for me as much as it was for him. Traci, stop worrying, let tomorrow take care of tomorrow, focus on the day before you and live each day to the fullest for Him. I love when we have those "God moments." As for Dustin I think that was the best phone call we have had in awhile and you could just tell last night he was going to go to bed with a smile on his face and a peace in his heart that hadnt been there in a long time. I know I went back to sleep with that smile and that peace knowing I had used the word and a simple parable to speak volumes to my son.

I am in the process of finishing for the 2nd time Beth Moores book "Get Out of that Pit!" and I stumbled across a bible verse I didnt really notice the 1st time maybe its one of those "God moments" where I wasnt supposed to get that verse till I was ready for it...anyways...Isaiah 30:15 states "In repentance and rest is your salvation, in quietness and trust is your strength, but you would have none of it." How many times does the Lord tell us to "Be Still and know that He is God and He is in control..." (Psalm 46:10) and we just keep on worrying and carrying on when we seem to forget God is bigger than us. That He knows whats in the cards for us and if we trust Him, He will lead us down the right path...yeah I know Words to Grow on and there are times I think if I would have just let Him have control of this situation or that one....maybe things would have turned out so much better...

Things didnt go as well as I planned...

Okay well things didnt go as well as planned with the whole family devotional thing. The part I did with Matty went ok but then we went outside to play and realized someone had stolen his scooter..right off our back patio! I was furious! I think I actually let my anger get the better of me but we do have some super neighborhood kids who are helping me find it (they told me last night some big kid is riding it around the neighborhood) I just cannot believe someone would get up on the patio and steal a scooter. Okay enough with that vent, Matty and I worked on his bible verse Joshua 1:9 and we got prayers said and the next thing I know he fell asleep downstairs on his big Elmo doll. Well at least we got devotionals done. Devotionals with Dustin were so much harder, Dustin kept crying that he missed me and wants to come back to Indy. I just dont feel back here with me is the place for him and so he proceeded to bawl through most of the lesson although he did listen. I miss him but I know him being with his dad is the next right thing for him. His dad and I have built up like this tag team parenting from 4 hrs apart and there really isnt any animosity towards each other anymore. Of course I dont see that happening between Mike and I as long as hes with the hoochie mama there will be no respect because I cant see that woman near my son or any child for that matter uggh she just makes my skin crawl. The evil in her, oh well. Lord forgive me for talking about her like that shes just one of those people.

Anyways it was very hard for me to get through the lesson with Dustin because of his blubbering and then I could not understand him when he was trying to talk to me so tonight when I call him I will pray for open hearts and for us to have an awesome devotional before I get on the phone. Didnt get alot done yesterday physcho dog got mad that I was outside and she was inside in the house so she went on a chewing spree and chewed up several of Matts toys which landed her in her kennel for the night. There are nights that dog behaves beautifully and then other nights I just want to lock her up in her kennel for good and last night was one of those nights. Tuesday is picture day so I have to find something for Matty to wear for pictures. I am guessing by all accounts that he is really loving kindergarten and yesterday he even read some for me.

I am loving this obeying mom thing and in bed by 8pm thing because the little booger is so worn out, last night he didnt even get through all his dinner before he fell asleep poor worn out little guy but that also helps mom so I can get my stuff done so I can go to bed.

I am just glad the olympics are over. How people like my mother can watch hour after hour of that stuff is news to me. Now I am gearing up for football! Go Notre Dame, they have to have a better season then last season or they are going to be saying gooodbye to Charlie Weis. Last night though I admit there wasnt anything much on TV so I had Food Network on most of the night. Its a great channel when there isnt anything else on. I am just not into alot of those sitcoms and stuff. Not sure why when I used to watch TV all the time. Well gotta scoot, enjoy the blessings and the fruits in your day!

The rest of the weekend

Saturday night I was still feeling pretty good although a little tired so I went to Vineyard to their End of Summer Celebration. Had an awesome church service even though I wasnt for some reason in a celebration mood. They had one song where all these people came on stage holding up cardboard written on with black marker telling about all the bad in their lives and then flipping it over with all the good the Lord has done in their lives. It really had me in tears. I know God has a plan but at the moment I feel like I am staring into a black hole, I so wanted to get up and leave but I just sat there and let the tears flow. I hate my heart being in a million pieces right now.

After Church out on the back lawn they had an awesome party--food, music, games, Matty really got the chance to enjoy himself, he loves a good party!!!! I have to admit I was ready after church to go home but Matty so wanted to go to the party so we went and I have to admit I ended up having fun despite my heart just really aching.

Sunday morning we went back to Chapel Rock. I have to admit I am really liking that church. Not very casual but the worship and the message is awesome! I went back to the Basin Sunday School Class, not sure what I was in store for and the regular teacher was back. The Lesson was on the Parable of the Talents (Matthew 25:17-34) They even had this modern day video relating to the bible verse except in this case they used paintings and not money. The one gentleman got the biggest jar of gold paint and he painted the most beautiful picture and did as the customer suggested, the one with the next amount did also as she was asked and painted a beautiful picture and used all of her gold paint as she was instructed. Then came the man with the smallest amount of gold paint and he sat there all night long and couldnt use the gold paint and ended up not painting anything on his canvas. The master was very angry with him and sent him away and had the other 2 paint a picture using that canvas.

It hit me so hard but I can relate my life lately to the man with the blank canvas. I know my divorce is final but for the last 3 months I have so locked myself away from everyone and everything including my kids. And why? I really couldnt give an answer. I know my marriage is over but why shut out my kids and my friends and family from my life. Why curse this pregnancy when it is in fact a miracle.

That really got me thinking. And I love it when the Lord gets me thinking because then he really cements his thoughts which sometimes can be so uncomfortable. Anyways went into the sanctuary for Worship Service and they were talking that when a child is born they have 962 weekends till they graduate 12th grade. I hate when God really drives a point home but I so needed that point drove home. My husband and I are divorced and I still have 2 boys that need their mom, so why am I shutting them out of my life? I honestly couldnt give an answer. My life isnt over although for the last 3 months I have been living as it has and it was then when it really hit me like a ton of bricks--what am I doing to help my children along in their faith? The answer was nothing, I work all day and come home and lock everyone out of my thoughts. Why am I missing this golden opportunity to be the light in my kids lives? The rest of the service went so much easier for me and as soon as the church service was over I went to the bookstore in the church and bought a childrens devotional book and called up Jon and told him what I was planning to do with Dustin to help him in his walk in his hunger for the Lord and he so agreed and then I called my bff Gena and told her and shes like God's light is finally shining through on you --God has given you this awesome opportunity to be there for your kids to pray with your kids and help them establish their faith you are finally living a part of the word --to train your children as God wants you to. I dont know whats going on with the situation with the baby's father but God has that all under control because I have given it to Him. So Monday night at 9pm I am going to start Day 1 of family devotions I will let you know how they are going, just please keep us in your prayers. I know I cant give my kids the complete family that they want but I alone with the Lord's help can be the beacon of light that they need.

Okay its Saturday!

Okay well I woke up raring to go! What the heck I have felt like crap for the last 2 weeks so okay I guess I deserve a good mornin. I got up and headed downstairs and scrubbed the kitchen and now just stripped the beds and remade them and got the washer going. I am thinking I am going to take a shower and while I am drying and etc then I will clean the bathroom. You know gotta take care of things while I am feeling good. I am then going to get the rest of the carpets vacuumed as well as the foyer downstairs mopped and then I will go to Meijer and pick up some stuff I love it when I am not feeling sick and can enjoy the day. Gotta get this place to looking my own oh yeah gotta add a pic of me 16 weeks into this pregnancy I wasnt this big with either of the boys of course I gained all the weight in my butt and this pregnancy is all out there because I can still wear my pants. Well I will have to add more later got to get to cleaning so I get that all done and then I can relax (like I know what that is...lol) Have a blessed day!

I am not the "typical" mom anymore

I have been exploring blogspot and I just realized I am not the "typical" woman anymore. I dont have a husband or at the moment a man. I have my boys and a little darlin on the way in 2009 but there is still so much missing from my life. I am overworked and well at the moment underappreciated. I was watching one of my favorite movies "Bye Bye Love" and I realized I am now one of those women. I was so into being Mikes wife and the kids mom that now when the kids are with the dumb arses I am not going to know what to do with myself. I am going to have to get it together. I know I still have boxes in my place that I just cant get myself to get rid of, well that and now I am too tired to do alot with the baby coming but it does really need to get done. I need to fix my place up the way I want to do it I have that right to do that now. I would also like a new bed. My old bed is like 10 years old and the mattress is shot (probably from me and the kids watching TV and vegging on it) but hey thats what we like to do. I have got to start enjoying my life for what it is and not what I want it to be. I know easier said than done. One of my friends the other night told me that I need to sit down and write out a list of things I like so I decided what a better place to do it then on my blog. Maybe some guy will check this out and ask me out (hey a preggo girl can dream cant she?) anyways here goes

Favorite:

color: red, Colts Blue
food: egg salad (mine is the best though)
pop: for the moment Sierra Mist, after the baby though I will go back to Pepsi
sports: football and NASCAR, although Michael Phelps is kinda cute too ..lol
movie: anything not horror, but I love romantic comedies
music: anything not rap so from hard rock to praise and worship. Music is the spice of life
"Cant have too much spice in your life." ~~Rachael Ray
ice cream: mint chip and butter pecan
dessert: cheesecake
shoes: my nike flip flops
shorts: my sweat shorts-- I love just putting a t-shirt with them and curling up on my bed

Okay maybe this wasnt a good idea because at this point I really do have no life. Although I love my boys and they are my life. They never were before. I mean I was the kids mom but I couldnt devote alot of time to them with working and everything and now time is all I seem to have lol.

Still Blah

Okay today is orange day at Matty's School so I decided to blog in Orange. Last night when we were getting ready for bed I was talking to Matty about all the colors he has used this week (each day has been a different color) Monday was red day and Tuesday was blue and Wednesday was yellow-- the primary colors and then Thursday was green--he told me that was his favorite day so far --me personally I love the color red but I am also partial to Colts Royal Blue..lol Today was orange. I am surprised that so far I have found a shirt for Matty in every color for everyday so either hes a colorful kid or hes got way too many clothes. (probably the latter..lol..just like his mom!) I am still sick except now its all in my chest and last night was awful because I couldnt breathe and the baby was kicking like crazy and my chest hurt so I was glad to finally just shut all the lights off and go to sleep. I am loving this Matty going to bed at 8pm thing because then I can go to bed, I hope this lasts.

Yay I got my computer back. Now I am busy doing all the Windows Updates to it and having a tough time even getting that done, but I have my online friends back. Thats cool. some of them even missed me.

Matty and I are going to have a Mommy/Matty night tonight. We are going to have pizza (hope my stomach handles it) and root beer floats and watch a movie. I havent done that with him in a few weeks and I know how much he enjoys it. If there is anything that this divorce has taught me is that I need to be closer to my kids. I love my kids with all my heart there isnt anything I wouldnt do for them, and I am never alone as long as I have the kids and the dog and the cat...lol...You know I would love to have someone in my life to share my life --my Superwoman life with but for now I am just enjoying hanging out with the kids. Someday I will learn to add pics to my blog and then you can see all the fun stuff we did this summer together, I know I have more pictures on my phone then I know what to do with. Well I am gonna scoot for now and get some work done (yeah right!)

Okay when I say I feel like crap....

Why is it everyone thinks they can jump on me? I am sitting here at my desk at work with a 102 temperature and have gone through 1/2 a box of kleenexes with a nose that just wont quit running. I finally have taken some tylenol so hopefully the fever will go down and everyone thinks today is the day we can throw everything at Traci day...uh no it isnt. I know God you are going to knock me over with a rolling pin if I dont Be Still and let things go. I know I am never going to get some semblance of my life back so I had better start making things of my life with what I have although its hard when you have to start all over and certain other people (who shall remain nameless) get to have their cake and eat it too. Okay well this has just been a bad day for me I think I am going to go home and go to bed oh wait I have to pay bills with no money okay God I am trying ..Be still...

Something that really spoke to me

Okay I was watching Joel Osteen on Daystar the other night and his wife Victoria always does this like "chat" thing before Joel's message. I don't usually watch it, it being 10pm and usually in bed but I had it on and Victoria came on and I admit I was going to shut it off but something just kept me there glued to it.

Victoria spoke of a woman who her situation is a lot like mine. Husband left her with kids and she was forced to sink or swim. To be there for her kids. Like me she was nursing a broken heart. Anyways she was at one of those run to the cross or run away from the cross moments and she was like God I cannot keep going on. God showed her that yes she could she just had to pretend all her problems were like balloons. Each balloon represented an issue and one by one she could give those problems up just like she let those balloons float to the sky. So that's what she did she took those balloons and wrote her issues and problems and tied them to the balloons and then went out to her backyard and one by one in prayer lifted those balloons to the sky and released them. And one by one it was like the weight was lifted off her shoulders. And every time she thought about the issues the Lord was there to remind her that He had those issues under control because she released those issues to Him. Matthew 11:28 states "Come to Me all of you who labor and who are heavy-laiden and overburdened and I will cause you to rest. (i will ease and relieve and refresh your souls. ) People usually stop right there but I find verse 29 to be just as powerful and part of the answer: verse 29 goes on to say "Take My yoke upon you and learn of Me, for I am gentle (meek) and humble (lowly) in heart and you will find rest for your souls. I know when things get to me. Like this week when I ended up in financial straits I panicked until the Lord stopped me and was like "Traci, who do you think I AM?" Dont you know I am bigger than the issues in your life? I have a plan for you. I love when God just stops me like that usually right in the middle of the beginning of a meltdown. Another verse that just so helps me and when things get rough I start meditating on it-- Psalm 46:10--oh I love how my bible puts this verse--"Let be and be still and know (recognize and understand) that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the Earth!" When all this started with the divorce and Mike leaving and everything and then me finding out I was pregnant I didn't stop and think that the Lord had a plan for me. I seriously didn't stop I went into the whole why me and what did I do? Well besides sleeping with another man (a no no by the way) I didn't do anything this is just how the cookie crumbles so to speak --- I did what Beth Moore in her book "Get Out of that Pit" tries to avoid...I held my nose so to speak and jumped right into that pit! I let my circumstances get the better of me. I didn't stop and Be still and Let God nope I let myself land in that pit. I shut God out even for a few weeks but God is God He is going to get His plan through to you no matter what. Even though I wasn't in the word God was showing me in so many ways that He needed me out of my pit. It was during that time that I grew closer than I have ever been to my boys. I loved it when I was married and Saturday afternoons we loaded up the boys and went somewhere and I missed that so much. But my marriage wasn't to be, God still has bigger plans for me. I need to put my issues in my life on those balloons so to speak and lift them to the sky and let go. I need to rest in the Lord that everything is going to be taken care of. God is using this time in my life for me to realize I don't have to have a man to make my life complete although I wouldn't mind a man. All I need is Him. Him and my boys He will fill in the rest of the details. I really love Joyce Meyer and she has a saying from her book "Beauty for Ashes"...."Its easy to give up, it takes faith to get through." I have that saying permanently imprinted in my heart and when things get tough and I want to give up I pull out that verse and I meditate on it and remind myself that God has awesome plans for me and that this too is a season and it will pass...

Havent been on in quite awhile so much new is going on in my life!

Okay well I know I havent been on here in like forever. The divorce is final now, I still cannot believe that my marriage is over but on July 22nd I signed the final divorce papers. Of course dummy didn't keep up with the child support (did you think he was going to) and now the rumors are that he married the well you all know what I think of her.

I did meet someone in May (towards the end). Of Course another soldier. And then in June I got the surprise of my life..I am pregnant! Wow! At first I was devastated and then overjoyed. The father didn't take it too well (oh well his loss). As I write this today I am headed into week 16 and last night Matty got to feel the baby move for the first time. I know him and Dustin are going to make great big brothers and I am hoping for this baby to be a girl although I will be happy if its healthy with all I have been through.

I am still in church seeking mode. I loved Vineyard but at 30 miles away I need to find something closer. So last sunday I tried a church called Chapel Rock Christian Church right down the road from my place. Very nice church and I am looking forward to seeking out the Sunday Schools and stuff although I didn't see a Sunday school for divorced pregnant women...lol.. Mike leaving me and then me meeting and then me now on my own again wow its been a crazy summer! I can honestly say I have had one of those run to or run away from the cross situations and I am very glad I ran to the cross and not away from it. In all of this from the divorce to the pregnancy to the financial challenges I can actually say 2 things have happened to me this summer---I have grown way stronger in my faith and I have learned who my true friends are (you know who you are girls and I thank you so much for being there with me for allowing me to call and vent at 2am and everything I don't know what I would have done without you.)

I have also grown closer to my kids. Dustin is still living with his dad up north but we are so much closer. He calls me at least 4 nights a week and tells me all about school and he just got done with 4-H fair and did so awesomely again this year. His Guinea pig "Charlie" (I personally think he is a pain in the butt) but that little booger won Grand Champion so now he is treated like a king (I cant believe a guinea pig we picked up for 5.00 won the best in the show!!) He also won Reserve Grand Champion on the notebook for his guinea pig and champion on his notebook for the cat and chamion on his collections project (the boy loves trains!) I am going to have to get some pictures on here so you all can see his accomplishments. Oh yeah and he won Reserve Champion on his butterscotch pudding (so maybe he is taking in his mom's footsteps in 4-H) I still cant believe he is in 5th grade!

My little booger Matty is almost 6 now (September 18th) and just started kindergarten. It was so cute to see him toddle off to the bus in his black and white camoflauge backpack (long story why he doesn't have an army green one...lol) He also has an awesome new babysitter and so far has gotten in trouble at school twice (uggh but I was expecting actually more than twice by now....lol)

Okay and then theres me. Not much new here beside the pregnancy. I dont know if the father wants to be involved or not but after the initial shock overcame then I became really happy about it and actually my parents are pretty happy about "her" too. I like the name Alison for a girl and I don't know what about a boy's name. I have given the father's heart to you God I know he is going through some stuff in his life so maybe after he gets through all the stuff he will come around but if he doesn't I have my friends and family. I have got to start putting more pictures on this thing to keep you all updated and maybe like a video diary of my pregnancy since this will be my last one (I guarantee you all because this one has been a doozy and enough for me!) Sitting here I was thinking maybe Payton for a girl or a boy name since the baby is due in February right around the playoffs and Super Bowl --Go Colts!

Last night Matty was laying on my legs and saw the baby move. It freaked him out but he thought it was cool. I cant believe Labor Day is next week this summer has flown by. But hey, the boys and I had fun! We went and stayed at Jellystone for a couple of weekends and went to the fair and spent time tanning at the pool and this was the 1st time since 2001 that I wore a bikini--oh well its going to be awhile before I get to wear it again--darn on me excercising and eating right and everything because the doc said changing my lifestyle is what allowed me to get pregnant. Guess its back to the couch for me ...lol you all know I am just kidding.