Havent been on in quite awhile so much new is going on in my life!

Okay well I know I havent been on here in like forever. The divorce is final now, I still cannot believe that my marriage is over but on July 22nd I signed the final divorce papers. Of course dummy didn't keep up with the child support (did you think he was going to) and now the rumors are that he married the well you all know what I think of her.

I did meet someone in May (towards the end). Of Course another soldier. And then in June I got the surprise of my life..I am pregnant! Wow! At first I was devastated and then overjoyed. The father didn't take it too well (oh well his loss). As I write this today I am headed into week 16 and last night Matty got to feel the baby move for the first time. I know him and Dustin are going to make great big brothers and I am hoping for this baby to be a girl although I will be happy if its healthy with all I have been through.

I am still in church seeking mode. I loved Vineyard but at 30 miles away I need to find something closer. So last sunday I tried a church called Chapel Rock Christian Church right down the road from my place. Very nice church and I am looking forward to seeking out the Sunday Schools and stuff although I didn't see a Sunday school for divorced pregnant women...lol.. Mike leaving me and then me meeting and then me now on my own again wow its been a crazy summer! I can honestly say I have had one of those run to or run away from the cross situations and I am very glad I ran to the cross and not away from it. In all of this from the divorce to the pregnancy to the financial challenges I can actually say 2 things have happened to me this summer---I have grown way stronger in my faith and I have learned who my true friends are (you know who you are girls and I thank you so much for being there with me for allowing me to call and vent at 2am and everything I don't know what I would have done without you.)

I have also grown closer to my kids. Dustin is still living with his dad up north but we are so much closer. He calls me at least 4 nights a week and tells me all about school and he just got done with 4-H fair and did so awesomely again this year. His Guinea pig "Charlie" (I personally think he is a pain in the butt) but that little booger won Grand Champion so now he is treated like a king (I cant believe a guinea pig we picked up for 5.00 won the best in the show!!) He also won Reserve Grand Champion on the notebook for his guinea pig and champion on his notebook for the cat and chamion on his collections project (the boy loves trains!) I am going to have to get some pictures on here so you all can see his accomplishments. Oh yeah and he won Reserve Champion on his butterscotch pudding (so maybe he is taking in his mom's footsteps in 4-H) I still cant believe he is in 5th grade!

My little booger Matty is almost 6 now (September 18th) and just started kindergarten. It was so cute to see him toddle off to the bus in his black and white camoflauge backpack (long story why he doesn't have an army green one...lol) He also has an awesome new babysitter and so far has gotten in trouble at school twice (uggh but I was expecting actually more than twice by now....lol)

Okay and then theres me. Not much new here beside the pregnancy. I dont know if the father wants to be involved or not but after the initial shock overcame then I became really happy about it and actually my parents are pretty happy about "her" too. I like the name Alison for a girl and I don't know what about a boy's name. I have given the father's heart to you God I know he is going through some stuff in his life so maybe after he gets through all the stuff he will come around but if he doesn't I have my friends and family. I have got to start putting more pictures on this thing to keep you all updated and maybe like a video diary of my pregnancy since this will be my last one (I guarantee you all because this one has been a doozy and enough for me!) Sitting here I was thinking maybe Payton for a girl or a boy name since the baby is due in February right around the playoffs and Super Bowl --Go Colts!

Last night Matty was laying on my legs and saw the baby move. It freaked him out but he thought it was cool. I cant believe Labor Day is next week this summer has flown by. But hey, the boys and I had fun! We went and stayed at Jellystone for a couple of weekends and went to the fair and spent time tanning at the pool and this was the 1st time since 2001 that I wore a bikini--oh well its going to be awhile before I get to wear it again--darn on me excercising and eating right and everything because the doc said changing my lifestyle is what allowed me to get pregnant. Guess its back to the couch for me ...lol you all know I am just kidding.