Okay last night went much better....

Okay last night went much better...with Dustin that is. He called me about 930 on the way home from somewhere with his dad and hes like hey mom how are you and all that jazz and to tell you the truth, I was actually half asleep. But then it was so cool hes like mom I am all ready for devotions. So I said a quick prayer..Lord give the child a peaceable heart and an open heart and to be honest I hadnt even looked at the devotional for the evening before hand and so I open it and its based on Luke 12...thanks Lord I guess I need a reminder too. Anyways Luke 12:12-the end of the chapter is all about not worrying and remembering that the Lord is caring for you. I love the illustration He uses about the raven, how he doesnt reap, doesnt sow yet God feeds them and gives them feathers. And then it was like the Lord placed the words in my mouth as to what to say to Dustin and what I was telling Dustin was good advice for me as well. Dustin I know we have been through alot but you know what its all going to one day very soon work out and when it does we arent going to have the chance to question God and say why, its just all going to fall into place and its going to be for His glory. As I was saying this and praying this into my heart there was like this peace I could feel on the other end of the phone line. I was like thank you God that you can make peace in the midst of the toughest trials of our lives. I am starting to worry about this baby and how I am going to afford it and am I going to be alone in the delivery room and where and who is going to take care of Matt and everything and last nights devotion was for me as much as it was for him. Traci, stop worrying, let tomorrow take care of tomorrow, focus on the day before you and live each day to the fullest for Him. I love when we have those "God moments." As for Dustin I think that was the best phone call we have had in awhile and you could just tell last night he was going to go to bed with a smile on his face and a peace in his heart that hadnt been there in a long time. I know I went back to sleep with that smile and that peace knowing I had used the word and a simple parable to speak volumes to my son.

I am in the process of finishing for the 2nd time Beth Moores book "Get Out of that Pit!" and I stumbled across a bible verse I didnt really notice the 1st time maybe its one of those "God moments" where I wasnt supposed to get that verse till I was ready for it...anyways...Isaiah 30:15 states "In repentance and rest is your salvation, in quietness and trust is your strength, but you would have none of it." How many times does the Lord tell us to "Be Still and know that He is God and He is in control..." (Psalm 46:10) and we just keep on worrying and carrying on when we seem to forget God is bigger than us. That He knows whats in the cards for us and if we trust Him, He will lead us down the right path...yeah I know Words to Grow on and there are times I think if I would have just let Him have control of this situation or that one....maybe things would have turned out so much better...