My dog

Okay there are times I love my dog...not many mind you but a few (lol). Christmas Eve was not one of those times. I drove home Christmas Eve to see my mom and dad and go to church with them so of course the dog was with me. Before I left Indy I stopped and bought mom some pumpkin eggnog and also some gingerbread eggnog (I hadnt tried the gingerbread one so I was looking forward to trying it) and headed on to South Bend. Got up to mom and dads and it was like their street erupted in chaos. The cops had someone pulled over I am still not sure why, the neighbors were trying to get their van to run so they had brought another van over to jumpstart it but apparently the person with the other van had polish in them because they didnt park the van straight and it stuck out in the road and made it hard for people to drive down the street dodging the van. Then as I am about to get out I see this dog who apparently got loose from his owner running around with the owner yelling "Butch...come here" and of course the dog wasnt going anywhere near the owner. He was free! But this also meant that I couldnt get Harley out of the van and into mom and dads sunporch and so I got out and started to unload the luggage. As I was unloading and keeping Harley in the van, Dustin called telling me he was ready to be picked up so I quickly got the luggage out of the van and Harley ushered into the house before the other dog saw her and got her on the sunporch. Keep in mind I hadnt unloaded the eggnog or the front of the van yet. Anyways got on the road to Elkhart when I decided I was hungry and remembered there were 2 candy bars in the Eggnog bag. It was when I went to reach back for the candy bars that I felt it----sticky and gooey and oh crap wet! The gingerbread eggnog had exploded all over the floor of the van!

I was so ticked! I wanted to try that one since I had already had the pumpkin one and liked it but here it laid in a puddle on my floor in the van!!!! From what I can figure out, Harley went to chase after that loose dog while still in the van and landed on it just right and it exploded. Now heres the big question...how do you get eggnog off the van floor. I have tried scrubbing and it hasnt worked...other than 76.00 at Ziebart any other ideas? Uggh that was the beginning to my beautiful Christmas (I so want to get that dog the biggest lump of coal I can find...lol)

Okay people cant drive here....

Okay seriously what the hell is up with people who get some ice on the road and go crazy? We had an inch of ice here tonight and people were into median walls and everything because they dont have a clue how the hell to drive slowly. I watched one woman attempt to stop at a stoplight like it was normal conditions and then she wondered why the hell she plowed into the car in front of her..I mean duh...I had a guy almost slam into the rear of me and I was like no way that would not have been cool. Maybe its because I grew up in Northern Indiana in the land of ice and snow that I can handle the ice and snow. I mean come on my boss wanted me to leave at 3pm what the hell for..I am a big girl I can drive in the ice and snow.

Okay after experiencing a bad driver commute tonight I am just in the mood to vent...what the hell is it with the women who married my ex's thinking they can be beotches and one in particular to my son. You need to treat him with the same love you treat your own kids. Yeah my son had an awesome part in the program tonight and sorry that yours didnt but it keeps happening I hear it all the time from my son about how you treat him worse than the other kids, It needs to stop or my son will be back down here regardless of the childcare situation. I am just getting sick of hearing my son being depressed because his stepmom who right now is with him doesnt love him like she loves her brats. Get over it already!

Okay I cant believe there is only 9 days left till Christmas! I havent gotten anything done like I have wanted to do uggh. And the dumb dog she unwrapped all the gifts I had wrapped uggh. There are times I just want to smack her and send her somewhere..Okay I actually had a pretty good day but for some reason tonight I am in this venting mood I mean what the hell? It just takes one thing these days to set me off...

Busy, Busy

I have been so busy with work and everything that I havent had time to share about last weekend which was awesome and catch you all up on everything going on in our lives.

Last Friday night I packed up Matty and the dog and luggage and headed up to mom and dads. I got to Argos and mom called and told me they were having pizza at the Wooden Peel (My favorite pizza place) in Bremen. So I drove on over and met them there. It was so cool taking the back roads I havent been on those in over a year I miss back roads unfortunately there are no back roads in Indy, and the Wooden Peel has the most awesome pizza. I love mom and pop Pizza places and I havent found one in Indy yet. I mean yeah we have Pizza Hut and Papa John's and all that but I havent found a mom and pop shop in Indy that I love as much as Wooden Peel in Bremen or Rossini's in Mishawaka.

Got to mom and dads and unloaded the car and went to bed. Woke up to a sound I have not heard in quite awhile....the sound of a snowplow. Now when I got to mom and dads there was no snow on the ground but when I got up at 8am there was 5 inches on the ground. I hate snow have I ever mentioned that? On top of that I had no idea where my snowbrush was and Dustin had dress rehearsal in an hour and a half...uggh....of course the boys..my boys loved the snow and it was all they could do to get through breakfast and head out for a few minutes into the fluffy white stuff and into the cold. I dont know why I have never liked snow even as a kid the only thing I liked snow for was tubing on the big hill at George Wilson Park just down the road from mom and dads.

I got Dustin to his dress rehearsal and of course they were late starting which means they were late finishing and of course lunch was passed by so of course the kids were hungry and tired and my sister -- Miss I am 30 and dont have a license and expect everyone to drive me around had this wonderful idea that we pick up dad and head to the mall for lunch at the Food Court and to see Santa (uggh I have I mentioned that I hate the mall at Christmas time?) so we picked up dad and off we went.

We got to the mall and finally picked out what we all wanted for lunch and had a nice lunch and then got into the mall and were on our way to see Santa which my 10 year old was not thrilled about because he is feeling this year he is too old to see Santa and apparently he is getting tired of my mom and sisters treating him like a baby all the time but my sis so wanted a pic of her boys with Santa so I had to bribe him into going up and standing by Santa while his brother sat on Santa's lap. Now heres the thing I am 31 years old and I still believe in Santa. Not the person Santa but I believe that everyone has "Santa" in their heart.

Its hard to believe that a year ago Mike had left and I was losing my place and the light looked so far away at the end of the tunnel. In fact the last few Christmases have been pretty awful but last year someone and I still dont know who dropped off toys and food for me and the kids on my porch. I am so grateful for that "Santa" who helped me and the boys out, and it just reaffirmed my faith that there is some "Santa" in all of us. So yeah I am 31 years old and still believe in Santa and I am praying that I can instill Santa in my son--maybe not the guy in the red suit but the Santa that is in my heart. I know the last couple of years have been super hard on me and the kids but it is my prayer that the kids and well me too keep looking for the good in everything we have been through.

Sunday was so awesome! Dustin did awesome in the play! It was as if the part was made especially for him! I was so proud to watch him, he truly has a gift in the arts I just hope his dad notices it like I do. After church and the play we went off to the 2nd highlight of the weekend home--- going to the ND Womens Basketball Game as they played Purdue. There is one more thing I love and that is Notre Dame Sports and living in Indy, yeah I have the Colts but I also love the Irish and I am so blessed that I can come home and enjoy the Irish with my boys and with my dad!

Since the divorce my family (my mom and dad and sisters and the boys and soon enough Miss Alison ) have become so important and close to me. Maybe this is one of the blessings of the divorce is that my family has become so much closer than when I was married to Mike. I enjoy coming home and seeing my family and spending time with them. Mom and I still have our disagreements but we at least talk twice a week and the boys have gotten so close to dad and mom and their Aunt Kris and Aunt Kelly---I even find myself coming home more often so I can do things with them. I am even goinghome for Christmas and I hadnt planned on going home but the idea of spending Christmas alone just didnt work for me.

Christmas...getting more in the spirit...

Okay I am getting more into the Christmas spirit. Matty had the awesome idea we needed to put our tree up and so tonight I got out the tree and the decorations and that was all it took he put all the decorations on the tree I think he did a wonderful job dont you think? I cant remember where I got the snowman I think a craft bazaar but it has the Colts and its awesome. The more Matty wants to decorate the more the Christmas spirit goes in my heart. We are going home to mom and dads this weekend, the kids are getting so excited. It is finally Dustin's play I cannot wait to see him as the lead. He has been working so hard and now this Sunday we will get to see the fruits of his labor!!!! Sunday afternoon dad and me and my sisters and the boys are all going to go out to ND and see the Women's Basketball Game, I cant wait. My family --all of my family has become such an important part of my life and I cant believe they werent as big as a part of my life when I was married. I missed out on such precious time. When people ask what makes me tick wow I have to think about this for a minute--My faith in the Lord, my kids, my mom and dad and sisters, all my family, and then my friends, my job, the soldiers I work with and now they have become my family. I also love the church I attend and the divorce care class. I have so much to be thankful for especially at this time of year.