I dont know how to title this...

I cant believe I dont know how to title this. First of all the 500 was awesome! I wish Rey would have enjoyed it more but he went and so now in 2 weeks I will be riding roller coasters at Kings Island, something I am dreading but oh well. We even had 2 crashes right in front of us! I actually think he would like the Brickyard better, more rubbin, more dirt than Indy car but we went and had a super time.

Saturday before the 500 we took Matty to Kokomo and I talked Rey into driving to Potato Creek where some of my friends were camping so they could meet him. We had a good afternoon with Penny and Terry and yeah Chris and Dean we just missed you but its all good.

On Tuesday Rey became a US citizen! It was so awesome and I am so psyched that I got to be there to see him take his oath! We celebrated with lunch at Hard Rock Cafe, they have the best chocolate shakes! I am so glad I was a part of his special day. He told me later that when he was up there taking his oath he felt like I was standing there right with him. I love that man, love him for so much and I am so happy to have him in my life.

This morning I got the news that my Aunt Barbara had died. Aunt Barbara was awesome. She fought cancer for 20+ years. I know it started in her breasts and she had a double masectomy and then it spread all over her body, but she never gave up the fight, until this morning. I am so glad she got to see her granddaughter get married on May 2nd and she could be there for the wedding and some of the reception. Aunt Barbara was the inspiration for me to fight my cancer and deal with it all. I am so blessed to have had her in my life.

I didnt know how to title this but I guess roller coaster would be appropriate because of all the ups and downs.

Bring on the weekend!!!

This weekend is Memorial Day Weekend, a weekend where we remember our fallen soldiers who died for our freedom. It is also the 1st weekend of the official summer so its also a big party! For the first time in 10 years I am not going to have any kids for this long weekend, and I am going to enjoy it! The pool is going to open, we have the 500 here in Indy and for the first time I get to go (thanks to an awesome man who has some awesome connections!) and the seats are awesome! I cant wait! I love this time of year, there is so much to do! The weather is awesome, its great to be able to go outside and go walking, go camping, swimming, biking, hiking. I am even going to try and talk Rey into a canoe trip in July down Sugar Creek. Then we have the 4h fair I can almost taste those elephant ears! So bring on summer, bring on the heat and get out there and enjoy it, I know I am going to!!

Well..Matty had the 1st casualty of summer..and its not even summer yet!

Well its what 1 week left till school is out and of course here we go bring on the scrapes and bumps and bruises and by the picture you can see that Matty has Christened the summer so to speak. Yesterday he was riding his bike and went to stop and next thing I know he was flying over the handlebars of his bike and hitting the pavement--ouch! I love my son with all my heart but apparently he inherited my sense of grace haha.

I dont think my week can get any worse!

Okay I am at it...my wits end! I dont think my week can get any worse..OMG!!! Yeah maybe thats a bad word but oh well I am so there! Tuesday and Wednesday I was sick and stayed home from work on Wednesday. Came back in on Thursday morning and was like Holy Cow! Basically all my work that no one seemed to do was piled on my desk...uggh....remind me again when I am laying there dying to not take a sick day it just compounds things! Okay well that was work we will leave the rest of that alone..just know its been a bad week and I am so needing alcohol and sex I am even past the Ben and Jerry's OMG!!!

My son, the 6 yr old is quite the challenge. Lord knows I love him with all my heart but he is the most strong willed stubborn child, Hey mom was I ever like that? Haha I cant wait for her to give me an answer..anyways I am in the process of trying to lose 15 lbs so I can fit in my summer wardrobe. I have this one box of cookies and I announced to Rey and to him the other night that this box of cookies were MINE--not Matty's mind you, but MINE and I was restricting myself to eating 1 cookie a day after I excercised, you know like a reward thing.. Anyways last night I came home and had to go up and change Ali's diaper and when I came down to start supper there was Matty with chocolate all over his face and an empty package of cookies--the cookies I told him were MINE! I was so angry, how hard is it for a child to understand that not everything is theirs. Earlier in the day he had taken my 3.00 which was my pop money for the rest of the week off the counter and lied about it and now the cookies....and then on top of all of that he proceeded to go outside and play around in a mud puddle and then when asked why his shoes and shorts and shirt were black from the mud he lied to me about it..wth???

Those socks that were on his feet with the tennis shoes will never be white again and who knows about the pants and everything else. I swear there are some days I just want to smack my head into the wall...I see these kids on Nanny 911 and Supernanny and I am like why cant my child learn to listen, what the hell is it going to take for him to realize he has boundaries and that he needs to respect other peoples property?

I admit I am a mom who lets my kids walk all over me because I would rather be their friend rather than be this very strict parent and so I am hoping to find a happy medium in all of this. Uggh I dont know there is so much more I want to post but I am just exhausted and frustrated.

Ali is experiencing Cereal!

And absolutely loves it! Last night I decided that we needed to get her so that she wasnt waking up at 4am for a bottle and that she would sleep through till at least my alarm at 5am so we decided to try feeding her cereal ... at first it looked like she wasnt going to like this and was going to spit it out at me and Rey and then we kept on with her and finally she started to like it and she by the end of the bowl had a huge cereal grin on her face! I cannot believe she is so easygoing that she liked it! I can tell you though that she would rather have Rey feed her than me and she is such his girl when he is around which is so awesome. I love when he takes his shirt off and lays with her watching tv with her bare chest or cuddles with her after we get her pajamas on her. She is such mommy's little princess as well, she loves to get baths and have a massage after her bath and I love dressing her. I thank God everyday for my children, they are what keep me going, I love hearing "I love you mama" from Matty and Ali's coos and aaaahhh's (her favorite thing to say) and Dustin's text messages and emails, I can have the worst day in the world and then come home and the kids will usually make it all better. Okay...gonna go and hug my kids.

Mom cant be sick!!

Okay I have come to the realization that mom cant be sick! Monday afternoon it started with this little headache and by Tuesday afternoon I had gone through a box of tissues for my neverending runny nose the headache was still there and I was miserable. Funny thing is that Rey came home with it Monday night after class feeling awful and I end up with the crud on Tuesday. Its funny because women have to be tough when they get sick and men get to whine or at least that is how I see it. Well Wednesday I decided to stay home and rest, so I sent Matty to school and Ali to daycare and Rey and I stayed home and slept through the morning. At 1230 we got up and ordered chinese takeout and then slept till like 3pm when he left to go to study before his class and I went over to Michelle's to get the kids. I just want to thank God for making meds to get over the crud--thank you for Coricidin HBP Flu. It was a lifesaver. That and Puffs Plus with Vicks. Both of them things I would have never made it through the crud as fast as I did without them.

I just keep hoping the kids dont get this so I have been spraying down everything with Lysol. I am so glad I had Rey to help me get through this as well. Even though he was sick he still helped me with the kids and even went out in the rain with me to take them to Michelle's yesterday...I dont like being sick because nothing gets done when you cant get it done!

Whats been going on in my life

Well its spring, the trees are budding, the flowers blooming, I have to admit that next to summer this is my favorite time of the year. The kids are outside playing ball and riding their bikes. Ali I cannot believe is 3 months old now. She is such a happy baby always smiling and cooing. I love it that her eyes light up and a smile comes across her face whenever me or Rey come into the room or like pick her up from daycare.

Matty is growing as well. This week at school he is the Child of the Week, we have learned since last weekend that fingernail polish doesnt go into the hair, also we also learned that the only way to get the fingernail polish out of the hair is by shaving the head, which Matty didnt want to happen since we tried nail polish remover and paint thinner and they didnt work so now he has hot pink highlights mixed into his dark brown/black hair.

Dustin has regained use of his cell phone and computer after getting a's and b's on his progress report. Also Harley has gone up there to live with him and from what I hear things are going great with him and her. I miss my dog but I am glad she can be with Dustin and my house can slowly get back to normal. I have figured out that I am not really a dog person, I love my cat Callie and hopefully in the next few months can get a persian cat and name her Cleopatra and call her Cleo for short, its going to be so nice to not have to pack up a dog and her cage whenever I decide to head up north for the weekend.

Life for me is going great. I am in love with an awesome man, its like ok God I want this, this and this in a man and oh boy did he answer. Rey is everything I have wanted and more! I love having a man who thinks so much like me, who wants to know me and love me for me and not expect me to change anything. I love when I get a text message in the middle of the day just out of the blue telling me that he loves me and is thinking of me. He also loves Ali and the kids which is a huge plus. Dustin tells everyone that he is glad his mom found someone and is happy. Dustin got the chance to know Rey the week he was down here for spring break and Rey, on his day off took the kids to the zoo! I love the fact that everyday he tells me how beautiful I am and now his life is complete that he has me and the kids. I just thank God everyday for the sunshine he has given me at the end of a very long dark tunnel.

Dustin is getting his projects ready for the fair and playing baseball. His 1st game was last Saturday and he got a double which was awesome but alas he is like his mom and loves to dig for high balls and so struck out his next time at bat. He starts summer band in June and will be playing the tuba. I am not thrilled about the tuba but its what he wanted to play and Jon is right, I have to learn to let him go and guide him but not run his life anymore. He is a good kid, not on drugs, not in trouble (except with his parents once in awhile) so I need to let go of the apron strings, which is so hard because hes my first, my peanut and he will always be my peanut, matty will always be my pumpkin and alison will always be my bugaboo. This weekend being Mothers Day really makes me reflect on how awesome and blessed I am to have my kids and how much I have grown with all the hell I have been through. I thank my friend Melissa and my friend Gena and my friend Janie for sticking through it all with me. I dont know what I would have done without each and everyone of you, I am so blessed to have moved on from my divorce, closed that chapter in my life and opened a new chapter with Rey and the kids.

What is it with the whistle?

Okay what is it with this whistle thing? It must be a gift from God for a select few people that by putting their fingers in their mouth and blowing can make a sound that will stop people dead in their tracks. My pastors wife has this gift and she uses it, my youngest sister has this gift and she can stop me and my kids in a New York minute when she uses her "gift" I unfortunately dont have that ability and hell that sucks when I need the kids to behave etc...there are also times that it gets annoying, like when my sister overuses it. But what is it with the power that a "whistle" like that causes? Can you tell I am bored here. The kids are both asleep and Rey is at the gym or wherever so I am just blogging to blog....Just a random thought....